Unexpected Miracle

Title: Unexpected Miracle
Authors: Roshni
Rating: G
Pairing: Changmin/Salma
Word Count: 3,312
Disclaimer: I do not own DBSK or the song. The song is Miracle by Super Junior. This is a work of fiction. This was written for fun. No profit is being made and no copyright infringement is intended.





Til now the time without you in my life
was full of darkness
but ever since I’ve met you
my life’s been like a dream
when I first saw you
a miracle
I felt a miracle it was you.

- Miracle by Super Junior

Being on top of the world, achieving my dreams was great. Everyone knew who I was, wherever I went at first this was awesome. This feeling of being someone important felt great. After a while it slowly died out and all I wanted was peace. To be able to go somewhere and people not know who I was. Just for one day I wished where I could go out and to the mall with people not following me everywhere.

Music is my life, I can’t live without it. I need it in order to be able to breathe it is my oxygen. It all became worth it when I met her. The first time I saw her, I felt like all my dreams had come true. How was I supposed to know such evil could lurk even inside the most beautiful things?

Jaejoong Hyung warned me so many times, but me being me, I never listened because he did not know how I felt. He was the only one I confided in my secret. Yes I, Shim Changmin had fallen in love. I snuck out everyday to meet with her, no matter how many times Jaejoong Hyung told me not to. I should have listened then I wouldn’t feel like this today.

The only reason I am getting through this is because of all four of my hyungs who have become my support. Their strength is what gets me through the day. I really did not want to live anymore. I was always with someone; they made sure of that, after I tried to take my life.

I just did not want to live like this anymore. Am I not human? Have I no feelings? Then how can people treat us this way? How can the people I love treat me this way? My parents? My love? We are people like them? We are not some things to own just because we are famous. I cry just like them, I feel happy just like them; I feel everything just like them. Then, why? Why do this to me? Why reduce me to tears every night?

I cry every night while all four of them hold me. I become light every night only to go through the same suffering the next day. I had become a scared child. I was really afraid of becoming a shell. I did not want to become a shell. This I told to my hyungs one day while crying. I felt suffocated. I just wanted to get away from all this. Maybe…forever. I shudder to think of what would have happened if Jaejoong hyung, Junsu hyung, Yunho hyung, and Yoochun hyung hadn’t been there. Today is like no other day. I wake up feeling dreadful as I make my way through my bedroom towards the kitchen for breakfast.

I walk in rubbing my eyes. Jaejoong Hyung points me to a delicious breakfast on the table consisting of eggs cooked in my favorite way with noodles. He is the cook in our small little family.

“Thank you.”

Jaejoong Hyung, “No problem.”

“What is the schedule like today?” I ask.

Jaejoong Hyung, “Nothing, we have the next week off.”

“OH”

Jaejoong hyung asks me worried. “Are you okay?”

“Yea, nothing to worry about.” I try to reassure him.

Jaejoong Hyung, “well we have a trip planned for the five of us. I was wondering if you wanted to go out to shop with Yoochun and Junsu,”

“No!” I reply a bit too quickly and loudly.

“Where are we going for the trip?” I ask not really caring.

Junsu Hyung walked into the room and answers. “I booked us a cabin at Astwood Cove beach in Bermuda.”

“Oh” I sigh.

Yoochun hyung looks at me teasingly with a bit of worry. “Is oh all you can muster up?”

Yunho hyung didn’t give me a chance to answer. “It is a quite, secluded beach in Warwick Parish.”

“Oh” I said again having nothing else to say.

Junsu hyung looks at me irritated. “Do you have the -oh switch- stuck on in your head or something?”

“Oh.” I reply just to irritate him more.

Junsu hyung points at me to emphasize his point. “See what I mean.”

Jaejoong hyung interrupts us before an argument could break out. “When are we leaving junsu-ah?”

“Tomorrow morning at 4 a.m.” Junsu hyung makes a dash for the door as Yoochun hyung follows him complaining about it being too early.

Even though it’s so early, there are so many people here. I think they must have found out that we were coming to the airport. Getting to the desk was impossible. People were tugging at my jacket, hair, and pants. I started feeling woozy, sick. The darkness was coming closer and closer until I could not stand up anymore. As I feel my legs giving out underneath me I feel four pair of hands reach out to steady me. I look up to see all of my hyungs looking at me with worry in their eyes. I give them a small smile to reassure them. They still do not look convinced but let it go. I feel their hands let go one by one and the darkness starts to creep back in slowly and slowly. I grab the arm of the one closes to me. I look up to see Yunho Hyung give me a small smile and put me in the middle as though they were all my bodyguards. I felt relief because no one could touch me anymore.

Even on the plane I could feel eyes on me but I couldn’t care anymore. I felt so tired so I closed my eyes and the next thing I knew was that Junsu hyung was shaking me awake because it was time to land.

Yoochun hyung, “had a good sleep?”

I shake my head in response to his question.

After the plane lands and we leave the airport, I give a sigh of relief as I realize that maybe for once I can be a normal person. People probably don’t know us in Bermuda. I felt a small smile coming to my face as we walk out of the airport and walk into the sunshine. A guy with a car is waiting for us as Yunho hyung had called and arranged for a car for us. However, it looked so run down.

The looks at us regretfully. “I am sorry but the car wasn’t ready yet, so I brought an older one for you guys till tomorrow when the other car will be ready. I will bring it to your cabin and take this old junk back. Is that okay?”

Junsu Hyung looks mad as hell but he seemed to control his anger.

Yoochun hyung calmly replies, “Yea its fine. Don’t worry about it.”

The guy smiles and passes the keys before leaving.

I nervously ask seeing the keys in Yoochun hyung’s hand, “who is driving?”

Yoochun hyung, “I am why??”

Trying so hard not to laugh I say, “I do not have a death wish.”

Yoochun hyung looks at me amused, “haha very funny.”

Junsu hyung takes the keys from Yoochun hyungs hand. “I’ll be driving.”

Yoochun hyung starts to pout and his eyes look sad.

I go towards him, “aaw don’t be sad, at least we’ll be alive when we get there.”

He starts glaring at me now. I go hide behind Jaejoong hyung before Yoochun hyung could inflict any damage onto me.

We all pile into the car and start on our week as normal people.

“Why is this taking so long?” I ask getting restless.

Yoochun hyung, “we are lost, this wouldn’t have happened if I was driving.”

Junsu Hyung, “shut up we are not lost.”

“I am sorry but we are.”

Junsu Hyung glares at Yoochun hyung, “ due to someone’s map reading skill” giving a pointed look towards yunho hyung who is holding the map.

All of a sudden the car starts to make funny noises and stops all of a sudden.

“Please tell me its one of your jokes hyung.” I plead

Junsu hyung looks at the car angry, “it won’t start up”

Jaejoong hyung gets out of the car and sits on the trunk while the other three start to fight in the car. I look between the three of them and deem it safer outside besides Jaejoong hyung. I go sit beside him on the trunk.

An hour or two passes as we listen to them fight. All of a sudden Jaejoong hyung got off the trunk and stands by the car hoping the car coming down the lane would stop. Luck was not on our side as the car did not stop. Another hour goes by and another car comes by but this one stops. I love whoever is inside that because I was about to die from the heat now.

Jaejoong talks to the girl who introduces herself as Jouty. After the introductions are done, we all sit in the car and are on the way.

Jouty, “I hope you guys don’t mind but I have to stop by our place first before I can drop you guys off. Is that okay?”

“That would be awesome. I won’t mind as long as it means I can stretch my legs.” I quickly reassure her.

Jaejoong hyung, “ yea and I get my lap free.”

“I am not that heavy” I turn to look at him.

Jaejoong hyung tries to look innocent, “ I didn’t say anything.”

“You implied it” I say chagrined.

Jaejoong hyung, “whatever you say.”

Jouty interrupts me before I could throttle him, “ah guys, we’re here, come on in.”

We walk in to see three girls in front of the TV and one girl in the kitchen.

As soon as I see the girl sitting in the middle my heart starts to beat wildly. A miracle is what I think I have seen. A girl with medium long hair in a ponytail, beautiful eyes wearing a cream colored long shirt and a very light colored baggy jeans.

Everyone looks up from what they are doing but her and the girl in the kitchen. The oldest girl in a bright pink shirt and blue jeans comes forwards and introduces herself as KC. The girl on the other side says her name is Naina and she can’t seem to take her eyes of Junsu hyung. The girl in the kitchen doesn’t look up from her work but calls out her name is Roshni. My eyes can’t seem to leave her face at all. I just want to walk up and give her a hug, for me, which is very weird.

Jouty walks up to the girl and shakes her, “look salz I brought you your favorite tandoori pizza and Roshni made your favourite chicken roast with paulao…please give me a smile.”

The girl looks towards her and for the first time I get a look in her eyes. Her eyes hold so much sorrow and pain, they remind me of my eyes when I look in the mirror everyday.

A small smile comes to the girl’s lips and her full face transforms and I feel as though I am looking at an angel.

Finally she looks up and for the first time she seems to see us. A look of confusion passes through her eyes. I walk forward and extend my hand towards her.

“Hi I am Changmin.”

All the girls but Roshni have a scared look on their faces but Roshni look very curiously towards Salz.

For two minutes there is complete silence in the room besides Roshni walking towards salz.

As I am about to put my hand down she raises her hand and puts it into mine.

“ Hi…. I am.. Salma.” She says very slowly.

All of the girls have shock written over their faces.

The other guys introduce themselves too softly so as not to scare her. They realize the vulnerability that seems to surround her and try to put her at ease.

KC looking at Salma, “Hey do you guys want to stay for dinner? I am sure we have more then enough for everyone.”

Yunho hyung with a small smile. “I think we are going to have to since we can’t leave without one of you.”

All through out dinner my eyes kept going back to the one person who has made me want to get close to them for the first time in life, besides my hyungs. Even though a smile was on her face, it did not reach her eyes and I think everyone could see that. She seemed to be the baby of the family based on the way the other four girls were treating her. It reminded me of the ways my hyungs treated me when or after I was sick or something happened to me.

I wonder what happened to her to make the other girls so over protective of her. I also sensed a sort of anger or something directed at me from the girls maybe because I had managed to break Salma out of her little cocoon she and the other girls had created for her. After the wonderful dinner we all got ready to leave and thanked the girls for their hospitality. However, their car wouldn’t start and we ended up not going anywhere.

“I am sure we have airbeds somewhere and the guest bedroom has two beds and a couch or we can always share a room.” Naina said with her eyes directed at Junsu hyung.

All the other girls rolled their eyes at Naina. I couldn’t help but feel that maybe my and Salma’s stories intertwined. During sunset I decided to go outside to the beach to help calm myself. Everyone was busy watching TV, so I told Jaejoong hyung where I was going. I doubt if he heard me being too absorbed in the show. The soft breeze seems to calm my mind and the warmth of the sand lulls me to sleeps. I feel myself go light and start to become frightened. Scenes flash through my mind and I become lost in the flashbacks.

I see my parents fighting and my eleven year old mind not being able to handle it. Their words caused each other so much pain and even more to me when their anger turned towards me and I became nothing but a burden from then on. They threw me out of the house so many times until I decided to leave one day for good.

I see the first time I told a girl I liked her and she rejected me because I looked too girly.

After my debut with Dong Bang Shin Gi, I see my parents come to get me and tell me that they loved me. I had been so happy at that time. I heard their conversation and everything broke down.

I see the day that I told the girl I liked her, coming back to me after so many years, saying that she loved me. At that time she couldn’t say anything because her friend said I was a bad person. I was happy until I heard her conversation with her friends saying that soon I will be in her clutches.

How could they only want me when I became famous? To show off to people that they know someone who is famous. No matter what it does to me? What kind of people are they? They don’t care about me, I loved them unconditionally and they’re the ones who kick me back down everyday. Because of them I am scared to live.

I open my eyes to see a hand stretching out towards me and I flinch back automatically and the hand stops its movement forwards and retreats. I look up to see Salma on crutches.

Salma looks at me surprised, “I am sorry I did not mean to scare you.”

“It’s okay. Don’t worry about it.” I reassure her.

“What happened?” She asks.

And for the first time I spill out the whole story. I spill out all I felt, what I had left out when I told the story to my hyungs. I told her about my parents fighting and me wanting to kill them or get away. I told her about not wanting to live anymore and trying to commit suicide. I spilled out everything. By the time I finished, I had tears down my cheeks and my head in her lap. After a while all that is left is the music played by the soft wind and her hand in my hair comforting me and for the first time I felt content I felt at peace.

That whole week I was literally attached to her. I spent so much of my time at their place that it looked like I was with them instead of my hyungs. I got to learn more about Salma. I learned she loved to swim and dance. She was actually on the swimming team in her high school. She was going to graduate this year. An injury in her leg had stopped her from swimming and dancing. It had been really hard for her. Her sisters were always there for her and I could see the love in her eyes for them. Over that week I came to love the other four as my sisters. However, Salma I could not love as a sister.

The next Monday came far too fast for my liking. Before we left Salma whispered something in my ear and I left with a smile on my face. I came back to Korea a new Changmin, refreshed and happy. There was a twinkle in my eyes that had been lacking before.

The last thing she whispered in my ear was wait for me, I’ll come see you.

Two years have passed since that week but I never forget her eyes and her smile. I wish to see her again. After a concert as I am walking out, I freeze in my tracks. There she is, standing in front of her four sisters, an angel and my miracle. I run up to her and give her a big hug and I feel camera’s going off and I can just picture the newspaper’s tomorrow saying. Well they don’t need to know about my personal life. Tears of happiness are flowing down my cheeks and all I can do is smile.

“How did you get here?” I ask brimming with happiness.

“Student exchange program on swimming and dancing.”

All I can do is smile at her. I grab her hand and we both run out of there leaving my hyungs and sisters there. I am sure they have their own catching up to do.

I drag her to the best pizza place that I know sells her favorite Tandoori Pizza. We talk and talk thankfully no one bothers us.

“Will I see you tomorrow?” I ask apprehensively.

Salma looks at me playfully, “well you are going to have to wait till tomorrow to see that won’t you.”

A small pout comes to my lips as she won’t elaborate what she means by that.

The next day I walk into university as we don’t have any other concert planned for a month. I walk in to only someone tapping me from behind, giving me a kiss on my cheek and running away.

A smile breaks onto my face as I run after the girl that had mended and taken my heart two years ago.

Originally Posted on June 27, 2008 at I-F.